I have been out of the loop here in the Palace… And have been in some not so regal places, for sure…
As this “spill” (more like Geyser) in the Gulf has been pouring out onto our ocean floor, I have been stuck in a puddle of my own negative focus.
I know that the tension I have been carrying has been fueled by my focus on a toxic and unnecessary flood of man-made disaster- somehow… I forgot to hold my center… I know full well that I am completely counterproductive when I am tuned into the pain body…
(image taken from: kartenlegerin.wordpress.com/2009/02/26/oh-ganga/)
I became in sensed with the understanding that, no, there is no intention to close this well (which could/would stop the flow of oil) but that due to the fact that closing the hole would lose BP their lease…. they have not been trying to close it at all, but rather, Keep it open… while they try to burn off or lap up what they can… saving themselves (they think) a shit ton of money…..
Wait.. there I go… I have made myself sick over this, and I am pretty clear in the knowing that I need to change my mind, hold the net of light and love and see the hole closing. Outrage at the fact that it is open, can not do much from where I stand…
There is this pain in my neck that at times in UNBEARABLE, and I am not so used to constant pain.
I was given the analogy of seeing the pain as a chocolate kiss melting in the sun, and at first… it freaked me out, I was like, shit, that just makes me think of oil on the beach…
But then I realized that if I could see the oil on the beach as chocolate melting in that 116 degree heat, I could be doing more with that, than my fear and outrage and upset…
And then I heard Dr. Emoto with his ever so Hooponopono prayer:
“To whales, dolphins, pelicans, fishes, shellfishes, planktons, corals, algae and all creatures ion Gulf of Mexico:
I am sorry.
Please forgive me.
Thank you.
I love you.”
Masaru Emoto
May, 9th 2010
Dr. Masaru Emoto… Please forgive us… Thank you, I love you.
Palace of Muse 
Your self awareness and honesty about your reaction is refreshing Rach. I think of how much negative goo has been spewed from us all at the collective level when I see photos of how massive and destructive this open well/wound is. So many emotions are stirred by this. I feel powerless and sickened if I think about it too long. How can we stop this and see that nothing like it happens ever again? Here I am AGAIN telling myself that things sometimes have to get worse before they get better. God/Goddess Help Us. Forgive Us. Thank you.